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November 05 再见了新西兰。。。 不知不觉已经五年零十个月了，我从一个十七岁不知天高地厚的小伙子已经成长成一个男人了，在这里那道我的学位，身份和工作都算挺如意的，得到了很多但是失去了也不少。往往现实生活是和一直追求的梦想是由很大的区别的，最终我还是选择了回到我父母的身边和接他们的生意。很多人说那你出来读的专业都对不上口，那不就是浪费钱出来瞎混吗？但我觉得可不是，我觉得我来了新西兰学会了很多人生经验还有很多不同方面的知识，这些都要多谢我妈的功劳忍痛的把握送出来。这次虽然回去觉得知识和自信都比以前多了很多，但是我相信会很快就会碰见很多从来没碰过的新挑战。我希望我这次的选择不会是错的，我希望我能更胜于我的父母，证实给他们看他们是没有白培养的我。还有我想在此谢谢在新西兰一直照顾着我的哥哥姐姐们，爱我的人和我爱的人你们都勇保安康。。。。 August 13 一生何求一眨眼短短的一年又过了！得到了很多失去更多，有开心也有悲哀，但是在我脑海中好像只有伤心！
我以前一直以为我是一个非常会表现和表达能力挺强的人！但是我才发现那是完全错误的，成天会让别人误会甚至是身边最亲的人，都会认为我很知识，做任何东西别人都以为我会从中得到利益！我安静想了一晚上但是还是想不通，但我认为再解释更多别人都会认为我在掩饰或维护我自己! 我只能对自己说我问心无愧，我也不会再介意别人怎么看我和想我！有可能我真的是一个带着面具的小丑，面具后面的表情和心理想什么在这个世界上没有人会知道，别人也不需要知道！
我真的要学会活动光彩，在也不要再为谁而活或为什么而活！！！ June 03 纳闷...真的好无聊啊....我都不知到我真正干嘛,也不知到自己要什么!一直在过这些堕落和腐败的生活,我快要疯了! 打工,运动,打球,骑车样样不行, 我真的不知道我能干嘛!每天回到家只对着四面墙,晚上睡觉也睡不着,作业也没办法写......我成天还以为我是一个很开朗和很多朋友的人,我才发现这是完错误地.....我以为出去找朋友就可以开心一点,但是我觉得在他们面前我就是个小丑! 基本上能找的朋友都被我找完了!!! 真的不知到我来了这里那么多年我学会了什么和得到了什么,除了把韧带拉断我看也没有什么光辉历史了!!!
我真的不想再孤零零的过了,日子也过得不怎么开心,钱又花不少,碰上的问题也不少!看着我所有喜爱的东西一件一件的离我而去!真的挺难受.....
我真的不想那样活下去了...我想回国了!!! 我想家了.... May 17 Donation救人是无分国籍的请大家积极参加赈灾捐款，挽救处于危难中的生命,您的每一元钱都是一份支持!
pls go to http://www.redcross.org.nz/donate.cfm
and there are several Ways to Donate
May 02 ACL reconstruction (18++)Hooray!!! finally had my surgery done, i have been waiting this for 7 months, no one can understand my feeling when the time being disable, someone even tell me is not a bad idea hurt themselve then stay at home and do nothing, that is not true at all! i reckon healthy worth more than anythings in the world, try to imagine u need helps when go to the toilet, can't move ur leg when u feel uncomfortable while u sleeping at night, can't do whatever u want to even though just some normal light duties, i really had enough felt like this is a long nightmare for me! i am glad i could walk off crutches now! wish that this won't happen to me or anyone who i know again......
now i have to work hard on physio, i really want to back on badminton, back on ridding my bike and back onto my normal life could do whatever i want! gambateh!!!
Here is some of the pics for my surgery
An extremely fat patient before surgery....
after surgery.....
After i get back to home
* friendly advise pls warm up exercise before u play whatever games and cool down exercise after u finished!! April 01 check this outsuddenly saw this on internet pls check it out haha...
KEDAI MAKANAN JIN MAN
金满满阿牛正宗西刀鱼丸 阿牛西刀鱼丸誉满全城顾客有赞无弹 在焦赖大同花园，有一间经营了10年的店铺—金满满阿牛正宗西刀鱼丸，凭一碗西刀鱼丸粉卖到街知巷闻，即使不是焦赖人，相信也对它略有所闻。 金满满的西刀鱼丸粉卖相不见得和其他人有何不同，可是尝过的顾客都会竖起母指赞好。问及老板阿牛，他的西刀鱼丸粉有什么特色？他披露，要制作出口感一流的西刀鱼蛋，选用新鲜的西刀鱼是关键所在，阿牛还特别强调他们是采用100%的西刀鱼肉，并不含其他肉类，选用西刀鱼做鱼丸，看上的是它的胶质重，特别弹牙，即使用机器打也可以打出手打的效果。 此外，这里的鱼丸粉汤是以鱼骨熬制而成的，需时至少6个钟头，最特别之处就是加入了鱼鳔，这是全马第一家鱼丸鱼鳔汤粉哩！而加入鱼鳔的汤汁喝起来味道相当香醇、鲜甜，绝对没腥味的哦！加上爽口、弹牙的鱼丸，这种滋味实在令人欲罢不能。 for deatial pls go to http://foodjourney.com.my/fjlatest/branches/listContent/53
January 01 NeW Year a better beggining.....haven't been on my space for quite a while bcz have been busy to sort whole lots of shit out, i reckon last year was the most bad luck year i ever had in my life, broke my ligament, crash my bike, drop my wallet, injuired my back and add up all the little silly things, all those shit made me crazy!! after all the stupid things happened to me i just understand why mum always said healthy is more important than anything in our life! I wish that in a New Year i could have a better starting and everything will go smoother and also the doctor could fix my leg as soon as possible! i am really sick on walk on my injuired leg bcz it sore all the time can't play sport, can't work, can't ride my bike, basically can't do anythings i want to do, i am pretty sure no one will understand my feelings! wish that everythings will be fine is this year if not i don't think I am tough enoguh to handle that much shit again....
Dad, Mum, My sisters and all my best friedns i miss all of u soooooooooooooo much, i hope i won't regret what i have choosen and what i am doing now, i really wanna be a successful and prove my result to my parents!! hope that all of u could support me all the time.......
btw here is some of the pics which i took when i countdown @ the whaft last night!
August 01 Malaysia BolehHey KL buddies feel bored??? hardly listen to local Malaysia made music?? then u have to check this out!! after listen to this i just realised that how good are Malaysian and felt that they really have potiential hahaha
Kawanku
Muar Chinese
Negaraku
July 28 一生何求其实有人可以告我人为什么要长大呢，还有我们是为什么而活的呢？人们随着一天天的长大就会有多一些的烦恼还有很多别的事情去烦！ 我觉得都是童年的时候是多么的开心虽然那时家境贫穷但我想那时也是过着无忧无虑的生活，当饿了妈妈就会喂我们吃，一时真的很想回到从前什么也不用烦！ 我知道这样想是非常不成熟的想法和非常自私但是有谁能告诉我能做什么呢？？ 当我们长大的了后需要烦金钱，事业，家庭，爱情等等。。。 在这时候我们只能抱着爱拼才会赢的心态去面对面对所有一切不论是爱情还是是事业都是一样，因为我们都不知道将来会发生什么？别人成天说失败是成功之母和要抱着不馁不弃的心态去做事情，但自问现实生活里你能接受多少回的失败还有多少人回给你机会再次的尝试，假如现在你一直抱着不放气不停的重试同样失败的东西别人只会认为你是傻B，但你成功了后别人只会认为这小子只是好运肯定不会想你曾经挨了多少的打击和不停的尝试！当你认真的去做一样东西的时候别人只会想这小子肯定有阴谋和想的什么利益而已， 当你不认真的时候别人之会说这小子一点也不用心只是抱着玩的心态失败了也活该！我已经开始迷糊了真的不知到什么是对什么是错，应该做什么和不应该做什么，我以前坚信做什么都不关系只要没有做坏是和对的起自己和天地良心就够了因么每个人的看法和观念都不一样！突然真的觉得活在这个世上已经疲倦了真的很想重新开始再来一次。。。真的很想找个人倾诉我所有的烦恼但是在这个世界每个人都会有自己的秘密。。我想一时装傻傻的什么也不知道和什么都不懂有可能会活的开心一点。。。。。 May 26 人生丑恶我想每个人都听过有钱并不是万能，没钱就万万不能，我同意这个说法但是我们有那个需要为了钱而展现我们人生追丑恶吗？？我们需要去争一些不属于自己的东西吗？？我还以为这些东西只会发生在电视里面。当我接到您电话了解您的状况后和听见您在哭哭啼啼，我真的不知所措还有心真的很酸。。。我只能说对不起我爱莫难助,因为我不在您身边即使在您身边我也帮不了什么。。尝试别在意别人说什么还有做什么好好的对待自己，做一些你认为你想做的东西和你认为对东西！！ 记得要好好活下去。。 我觉得这个世界真的很乱，身边追亲的人都未必能相信 May 13 Forever byeForever bye Grandpa
i really can't believe what is happening now, i really wish that this is a joke or i am dreaming! i knew this will happen in one day but i doesn't aspect will be that fast... i really don't know what can i do now?? i really felt that very sorry because i can't go back, i really wish that could see u once more time!!! right now all of my grandpa and me exprience and memory just flu out on top of my head! when i was child i lived together with my grandpa, he fetch me to school daily by walking, bring me to have my hair cut, buy toys and games for me, buy ice cream for me every evening, bring me to eat roti canai and drink teh tarik until i can drive and fetch him go where ever he want to go and i still remember last year i fetched him to hospital do all the different check up all the time, he looks very very weak at that time but he still keep trying to work hard because he don't want us to worry about him too much! he is really the one who seen how i grew up eventhough sometimes we did have some arguements and he even punished me b4 but never ever do that to his son but i still love him so much! i remember he was quite happy the day before CNY, after the annual meal he took off his shirt then asked me to help him take a pic said he want to keep that for a memory, he can see how skinny he is after he recover. i really can't imagine and accept all the things has changed just in 1 day.... but i think he might be happier choose to leave us because i can felt that he had enough of hard time fight with those disease. i am really sorry because i can't do anything to help and don't know what can i do now, i just can wish that he will live happier in another world...  May 09 成功？？其实一个人怎么做才会成功呢？？
要到底这么算才是正在的成功呢？？
给你选择你要爱情还是面包呢？？？
假如你没面包还有资格说爱情吗？？
但当你有了面包却没爱情，那活的还有意义吗？？
我们是不是应该不顾一切去追求我们的梦想呢？？
当你成功得到你的梦想的时候别人会怎么说呢？？
肯定会说这小子真他妈的幸运。。。
但当你失败一无所有的时候别人又会怎么说呢？？
肯定会说这小子就是傻B成天就在做百日梦。。。
请告诉我应该怎么做呢？？
为什么我总觉得我做什么都不会成功呢？？
为什么往往别人都做的比我好和容易呢？？ 那是幸运吗？？
已经到这个年纪了我还是一无所有，一事无成，一败涂地，一无所长，一堆烂泥
 April 10 sad...how come no matter how hard i work and i tried my best to do well also will never get certify?? all i get just tons of complain this and that.... is that i have commiunication problems or i am really that bad... pls tell tell me what can i do, i am really confused.... i really wish that someone could tell me what can i do October 05 奇怪奇怪
好久已经没有写blog了，我想每当一个人写blog的时候应该是最空虚和无聊的时候吧！！我那种感觉又回来了，真的觉得非常难受，我真的觉得我快无法忍受自己了。。。每当这时候我就会闷闷不乐甚至跟谁说话也不想了！！！ 为什么每次我做什无论有多么用心用力，都比别人更加努力的去做，但是都没人赏识我所做的一切？？ 我真的很像小丑吗？？但我认为我像傻子多过像小丑你们认为呢？？ 唉。。。我想我真的快熬不下去了！！神啊请你救救我吧！ September 12 Confusingi am really wonder i bought this 200sx & do RB20DET conversion if is a right choice... even thought Jeff help me out to do the conversion can save a lot of labour but all those parts are quite expensive..... i am pretty sure until end of the day i will lose some money but i can gain heaps of experience..... anyone can tell me what is more important money or experience???  |
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